ugh, roommates...

I dont understand.
How can somebody be so self-centered and inconsiderate?
I would never in my wildest dreams think that somebody could be that way.
I would never ever do that to anybody.
I am fed up with this, no more.
I will take care of this, i might not be very nice, but i have to do something.
I do not like being taken advantage of, and its not happening again.
I rarely have arguments with people, but i need to have one.
Ugh, i still just cant understand this.

bad mood, but hopefully getting better

i am in a very very bad mood.

i have had a bad day.

i have a headache.

i slept for three hours, so i probably wont sleep tonight.

im about to go to the REC.

so maybe i'll be able to work out all of the bad frustration.

i sure hope so.

im going with jen and steph.

so maybe i'll be in a better mood.

"if you wanna be my lover..."

gotta love the spice girls.

i know that that is very random.

but im trying to get in a better mood, so why not listen to spice girls? lol.

things to look forward to:

1.no class tomorrow, thank goodness.

me and jen boycott "mr. earth is round's" class when it rains.

there is just no point to going.

he is dumb and has no clue what he's doing.

and honestly i dont want to have to listen to a thirty minute lecture on why its raining outside.

im not even kidding, he does that.

then he will proceed to explain some other stupid subject.

2. i love my second family more than anything, except for my blood family.

they are amazing and the only reason im not severely pissed off right now.

but everythings gonna be ok because i have great things in my life.

be happy be happy... whay is it so hard???

ugh...maybe everything will be better when i go to the REC.

fear

why should i be afraid?

what do i have to be afraid of?

rejection...

but the things that he says, he is just so sweet.

how would he hurt me?

how could he hurt me?

why would he hurt me?

i just dont know what to do...

im just gonna have to have faith.

i have trust issues, yes.

but, this is different, ive never had this to happen to me.

what if he thinks im ugly or not right for him?

hes seen my pics online, so....

i guess that if he doesnt like me, i'll be able to get over it.

ive dont it before.

gotten over heartache.

i know that im young, but i want love.

i want to find it as soon as possible.

i know that sounds weird, but i dont care anymore.

im not ready to get married, unless its fate.

but, if this is THE guy, then who knows?

i hope that everything works out.

which way? i dont know. lol.

im just gonna go with the flow and see what happens.

but i am happy though.

love

"Love is like war... easy to fall in. hard to get out. impossible to forget."

i found this quote in photobucket and it spoke to me. i dont really know why, but its amazing...dont you think? it sums war and love up in one line. many writers and poets have tried to do just that, but they have never been able to...until now. i dont know who coined this phrase first, but whoever did has been the very first person to even begin to understand the meaning of love and war. though some would say that love and war have nothing to do with each other, they do according to this quote. they have a lot in common, they are both frustrating and impowering. they can be sad and depressing. i hope that once i fall in love, if i do, that it will be like this quote says it is. i never want to forget the felling of love because i havr heard that its amazing. i want to fall in love... but i will be patient, as always. =]

my life is amazing

i am so happy.
i dont really know why.
i have some great friends, and im doing well in my classes.
i love the cold weather, and the sun is out today.
im working out almost everyday.
i have a job thats fun, well most of the time.
i have a guy that likes me a lot, but im not telling anyone because, i just want to see how it will work out.
im not stressed out like last semester.
i have time to think.
the only complaint i have is, i wish that i would sleep better at night.
but even thats ok, because ive been having some good dreams lately.
i love all of my rommates so much.
i love my second family too.
i have one more complaint, i miss my family terribly.
i dont get to go home because of work and classes.
but im going to invite them down in a couple of weekends.
i am so blessed with everything that i have going on in my life. thanks GOD. <3

crazy

is everybody going crazy?

i think so.

the world today if full of jealousy hate.
though it might go unnoticed sometimes, we all have these tendicies inside us.

to do the wrong thing, it happens.

but, the thing about life is... we can move past what is normal into something far more difficult.

the difficulty arises when we try to do what is right when all we want to do is wrong.

i listened to a simple plan song for the first time tonight and it got me thinking about whats important in life.

the songs name is crazy.